Ever Get That Feeling?

[kerojana]

The coldness beneath your feet? The trembling sensation running down your spine? Maybe the dryness in the back of your throat as you try your hardest to form the words you know dwell in the back of your mind? How about the feeling of everything you ever worked for suddenly going up in smoke as the world spins around in circles? You gasp for air, but the more you try to take in what your body needs to relieve itself. The more you begin to go under as a light headed sensation takes over your consciousness.

Well with all that said, hopefully whats going to come next won't seem so bad in hind sight.^~^;; The deal is I'm having some issues drawing out my old self. I've been lurking around this place, looking at posts, character sheets, little footnotes and other OOC comments here and there, and I gotta say. I'm starting to fall in love with this place more and more. There is one issue that I'm having some tough times with though. It's starting to draw out some unrequited feelings that I thought I was over.

Okay..maybe putting it that way is a bit to strong. Maybe...homesick? Yeah, that about hits the nail right on the head. It reminds me a lot of the old canine/fox proboard I used to be involved with. Quaint..cozy..everyone gets along with each other. Sure this isn't on as big of a scale, but that doesn't mean it won't get there. In fact I see a lot of potential here. Even more so than I did back when I was first starting to role play. Alright, that might not sound like much coming from a 23 year old that only has about 3 years of experience. Especially since there's still more room for me to improve.^^;;;

Help a guy out though. I'm still trying to get used to things here and I want to be the first to say "I'm having a bit of trouble wanting to take my first steps.". Getting started was always a big draw back for me. If there's too big of a crowd I become scared and go to the corner to wait for things to die down, but at the same time if there aren't as many people moving things around. I have a bad habit of over thinking everything and make matters more complicated than they need to be.

So to end all the random stuff. I guess what I'm trying to say overall is. Has anyone else here ever had trouble moving into a new role play board? And if so, how exactly were you able to get past the feelings you had for the old one you used to be so active with?

[Waltz]

Oh Kero, I get that exact same feeling. I'm still rather new to RPing myself, and could improve. I get really scared when I like an RP and want to join. I'm afraid of joining, not knowing if I'll be as welcome as the other RPs I've been in(and let me tell you, I didn't feel all that welcome). I also tend to overthink things, somewhat like you, on whether if my post is too much, if the gramnar is bad, confused on what you are supposed to do, etc. etc.

And, well, I'm like that way in crowds of real people. I can't stand to be in them, for I get nervous and anxious. Though, I can stand a few people.

So, its hard for me to actually join an RP I love. I get what you're saying, it is really hard sometimes when you have memories of past RPs. You're not used to the ways the new RP is, even if you do get used to them, you might compare how things are done. I know I did for a while here. xD

[kerojana]

I really need to get my head checked sometime soon..*sighs* Though its really my own fault for not checking back in for the last two days. Life tends to throw its own curves at us each day that determine the outcome. In my case..not being able to get on the computer and wireless getting kicked off at times when I'm trying to post something.

Anyways..eheh..^^;; if not feeling welcome was ever an issue in my book, then I wouldn't have bothered putting up a post of any sort. *Much less trying to revive an old character that I hadn't used in years*

I hear ya though. First time jitters, and constantly looking over your own shoulder tends to be a pretty common thing. Least that's what I keep telling myself.^-^;; It's just something I need to get over. Well..something that I wish I could get over. That's not always the case though. In the end, their will always be something out there which will challenge us and push us further out of our normal comfort zone. I guess it just depends on how we cope with it overall which decides how we'll deal with the next situation. Either way, its probably something that's going to be on my mind for a while